i decided to let my blog take a break from the drama .

it's so hard to understand someone . but it's also hard for that person to understand you .. i just really need him to give me what i want when i want it . i know i'm very bad to be such an idiot doing this kind of thing to him but i really want the things from him very badly .

his companion mean so much to me .. i decided to post it all here .. i'm crying now when i post . it's a heartbreaking situation for me . i cant stop thinking so negatively . it's something that flows in my blood . my mind like to plax that image over and over again .